Life Update!

Let’s start with the simple stuff!

Currently Reading: Deepak Chopra’s The Seven Spiritual Laws of Yoga. I’ve been doing yoga for about two years now but I’ve never explored the spiritual side of it. This book is my introduction to that.

Currently Watching: Queer as Folk. I was really into it during the first season but I’m kind of struggling through the second season. But I’m committed so I’m gonna finish it!

Currently Listening: There’s not one album at the moment that I’m completely obsessed with but I am really into Haim, Green River Ordinance, and Priory.

Okay, now on to the real stuff!

I’ve been seriously MIA lately for a couple of reason. The biggest is due to my piece of crap computer which only worked about one time out of every thirty. As of last week though, I ordered a new one and I’m currently typing this on my shiney new MacBook. I’m in love guys. It’s perfect.

The other reason is that I’ve been working SO MUCH and it’s just been insanely hectic. This reason is why I’m not sure how much time I’m going to commit to this blog because I’m really not that interesting when you consider all I do is sleep and work. But I’m going to try to at least get more active online with my blogging skills.

Outside of that, not much has been going on. I just had dinner with Maggie and Kristi (I’m too lazy to link their blogs right now but they’re the other goobers I talk about on here so much). I’m about to spend a thrilling evening transferring important files and such over to my new baby. I’m such a party animal.

But there’s life at the moment. I’ll try to come up with something interesting to talk about next week.


30 Day Challenge: Life’s what you make it.

8. Imagine how your life would be different if a particular significant moment/detail in your life was altered or never happened.

Today’s topic is a bit worrisome for me on a couple of levels. First: I constantly analyze every single decision to see if I could have done something different and had a better outcome. Second: there so many things in my past that could change and completely realign my life as it is now, a life I kind of like most of the time.

My first thought was ‘what if I hadn’t dropped out of high school’? But I think I’m going to save that one for day 17 because, trust me, that’s the moment I knew the rest of my life would be different.

So then I remembered something even more applicable for today’s prompt. The day I found out I didn’t get into my first choice university.

Most of my life, I knew I wanted to major in English and I’d always been told that UNCW had one of the best English programs in the state. I applied, I had the grades, and then I just had to wait. Well, I never heard back so I finally contacted them. Apparently, my transcripts got lost in the mail between my community college and UNCW. They were filled up for the fall but would gladly have me in January if I was still interested.

Well, I didn’t want to wait so I applied to ECU in July of 2011 and got in, starting the next month. Now, I can’t even imagine going anywhere else.

If I had waited for January, I wouldn’t have my friend or roommates that I talked about yesterday. I definitely wouldn’t have decided on a second major. I honestly don’t think I would have done as well either. But, most importantly, I wouldn’t be the person I am now.

ECU changed me for the better. I made genuine friends here. I grew into my own skin here. I fell in love with myself here.

You see all those TV shows where the main character goes off to college and becomes the person they were always meant to be and you think it’s all so cliched and unrealistic. But it’s not. It happened to me. Even on my worst day, when my roommates are driving me up the wall and I’m stressed out from finals and I’m working two jobs that I hate and I’m trying to figure out why I ever thought I was cut out for this, I am happier in this tiny apartment in the busy city than I ever was back home, surrounded by comfort and familiarity.

I can’t imagine not having that now. I can’t imagine going anywhere else.

So maybe that’s not the point of today’s topic. Maybe I was supposed to imagine the life I could have lead at UNCW, spending down time at the beach or hanging out at local shops as-seen-on-One-Tree-Hill. But I’d rather be right here, sitting in my bed, in my freezing apartment, while I listen to my roommate making food and complain about her first day back in class. This is me. This is home.